Depression that hurts

Don't knock it.  It is real.  My best friend was chatting with me last night about my blog.  I was telling her how much better my hurts were now that I am on this new medicine.  She asked if I thought I had Depression that hurts.  And you know what!  I do.

I have degenerative disc disease in my lower back.  I have an old work injury and there is now arthritis in my lower back as well.  I also have had arthroscopic knee surgery on my right knee once and my left knee twice.  My left knee is still not fixed.

Before this new medicine I was in pain from both all the time.  It seemed that no one understood or they thought I was making it up.  Keep in mind, this is what I thought was going on, depression makes you think things differently than what they really are.  Now with this new medicine, I still hurt in these areas, but it is tolerable.  It is not pain that makes me want to stay in bed all day.  I was hurting everyday.  When you hurt like that and have that cloud of depression weighing on you, it is a huge effort just to smile.  I am so glad that I am out of that zone.

I do still have bad days.  But the worst days are behind me, and I plan to keep them that way.  I still struggle some, but the fight is nothing like it once was.  I see things a lot clearer now.

I have found that instead of going to my knee doctor and him prescribing me loratabs for the pain,  I can get the edge off with Tylenol Arthritis.  With that I can still function =)  YAY!!!