I guess I am behind in the times. I am just now getting around to blogging. I have myspaced and I am addicted to facebook, but I am just now starting to blog. So bare with me.
I started this blog so that others could relate. I suffer from depression. I know that there are others out there. Some admit it and some do not. Whichever you are, know that I understand! I know how hard this disease is. YES! I said disease. I will go into that more in a few.
I am not sure when my depression first manifested. I know that I have had it for almost as long as I can remember. I have destroyed relationships, not knowingly, because of depression. I have hurt people and I have hurt myself. I have had hurt upon hurt happen to me, and with not treating my depression for so long...all that hurt just builds up. With all of that build up, you eventually explode.
I have been to the doctor several times. Gotten meds. Some didn't work so we tried new ones. I would start feeling better and instead of talking to my doctor first, I would stop taking my meds. BIG MISTAKE!!!!
My doctor now explained it this way...."You wouldn't keep medicine from a diabetic would you?" me...(small voice) no sir. "Then why would this disease be different?" My doctor went on to explain to me that depression IS a disease. There is a chemical lacking in your normal brain function....insert your crazy jokes here, like you never had a brain lol. So you have to compensate with a drug that gives you the chemical you are missing. Once you find the right meds, and most the time it is the first one, then there is a huge change!
My advice to anyone not medicated. Talk to your doctor. Yes, there are natural ways to treat depression. I do a few. But there is no substitute for that right medication for it.
As I continue to blog, I will talk about things going on in my life and how it effects my depression. Feel free to give me feedback on how you cope and deal as well.
I have been going through it since the end of 2007. I didn't realize I was until about a year ago. I live in Cali and my daughter who just turned 7 is w/ her idiotic and horrible father. Things that have gone on are beyond my control and I feel so completely lost and just cry at the drop of a hat. I'm not sure what to do. I went to see a therapist for awhile but then I didn't have the money anymore and I can't exactly go to a doctor since I don't have insurance and atm no job. Do you have any suggestions as to what I could do until I'm able to go to the doctor? I miss my little girl like crazy. It's been over a year now since i've seen her because of my ex. He's caused a lot of drama and has prevented me from seeing her unless I wanna pay to see her ontop of all the child support that I'm supposed to be sending. The flight to even get there cost quite a bit as well. Most the time I don't wanna do anything but sit in the house. Any suggestions you have that might help would be wonderful.
ReplyDeleteH, I would check with a local church. Most of the time they will offer you free therapy. The first step is being able to talk to someone who won't judge you, but give you advice. Getting out is still hard for me. I am a home body too. That will get easier to deal with in time. FOr that go to a thrift store and get a cheap decoration to change up the scenery. Looking at the same thing day in and day out can help your depression to deepen. But yes go to the church and get that session scheduled. There are local programs here that even help with medication costs, so maybe they can point you in the right direction for that too. Feel free to email me anytime you need to talk.
ReplyDeleteI love your idea Shel. I have a blog also that I used to express the chaos in my thoughts that at times is attributed to depression.
ReplyDeleteDepression is serious and difficult to understand at times and I really believe talking about it helps. I hope you get lots of followers and posters and this really takes off to help anyone that needs it. Lots of love sweetheart, keep it going strong.
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